I have experienced so many emotions in the last 48 hours. And honestly, I can say that the entire past 12 months or so of my life have been some of my most emotional. A lot of things have played into this (5 jobs, growing relationships, failing at school, rough spots in friendships, the death of 3 grandparents, money, choosing to be obedient to God in moving away from the place I love, being totally childish after actually being obedient,  battling with myself over becoming disciplined, dealing with the distance in my relationship & learning to maneuver it gracefully, God teaching me patience, and about a million more) but the death of my high school best friend has been incredibly impact-full.

One year ago today, August 13th, I woke up, way too early, to the man I love most in this world giving me the worst, most unimaginable news about a man that we both love dearly. There were so many emotions overwhelming my brain and body that I didn’t even have words.

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“Keeping your eyes on Me is the same thing as trusting Me. It is a free choice that you must make thousands of times daily. The more you choose to trust Me, the easier it becomes.” From Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

Colossians 2:6-7 | So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.

This hit me hard this morning because there’s so much truth in it.  I always tell myself, my friends, my high school girls that we have to choose Jesus every single day, multiple times a day. But for some reason seeing it proclaimed through Sarah Young’s writing in Jesus Calling was so comforting and convicting. Continue reading

Clinton Scott Diaz

Today was one of the absolute hardest days of my life. This entire week definitely goes down as the roughest, most difficult, unimaginable, painful, terrible week of my life thus far and that I will probably ever have.

Losing your best friend is something you should never have to go through. Going to a funeral of a vibrant 20 year old is something no one should ever have to go through. But combining these two things into one tragedy is certainly more than I can handle.

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Spirit lead me …

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever you would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith would be made stronger
In the presence of my savior

from Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong